As to me

As to me, as to now, only that I am at the very beginning again, a child remembering his young adulthood, especially the trees outside the windows, the clacking branches and the leaves twisted loose.

Here I am dependent, an infant. I can't even speak. The world behind me and the world in front of me rise like either side of a massive canyon.

Two me,
ripped from me
to me,
love you.
We go.
Too me
to stay.

two frowns
to pissing boy town

indicated by a resonance
located in a hollow
a place that cannot be entered
it's simple and sparse

and I get tired trying to reach it
I lose my place in the repetition of pace.
I stumble.

Dust plumes like powdered sugar
My tongue is chalked
I spit and cough

Fuck you!
It comes from deep within
and I’m not sure to whom it’s directed
Fuck You!

Because I will always trip

No revolution without revelation.
No relevance without resonance.

I’ve seen it before,
known from the start
lost it and lost it again.

A meteor travels across the sky
It illuminates the forest and terrorizes the animals
but all that it leaves behind is a crater in a field.

Wishes rise
harnessed around hearts
A sidewalk of strangers
walks lighter.